to : my beloved Fa n Ma :D

HAPPY 24th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY abah & umi !

semoga berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat dan di limpahi rezeki serta diberikan kesihatan tubuh badan :)
kami ; putera puteri abah & umi sentiasa mendoakan yang masjid yang dibina insyaallah berkekalan

AMIN ..

i heart youu

AB RAHMAN YASIN <3 HASNAH ISMAIL

may Allah bless both of you always

enjoy the song :)

there is nothing much to say since i am really not in good mood..
i am not gonna post it here..when i am in good mood , only songs can soothe me ..
then ,let's just enjoy this song entitled : ku ingin selamanya by ungu = )

action speaks louder than words

this post gonna be a short one

i don't feel sad nor frustrated if you treat me that way

you seem very happy 

good bye love

maybe you would notice me if i stay out of your life

i wish you have a good life outside there

have a blast one

bye bye 

ape yang penting :

KERJASAMA :)

assalamualaikum and night guys !

dah lama rasa tak update belogg..

*though just a few days..hehe

today , my brother and saye bekerjasama

MENYERVICE AIR_COND 

hehe..* ingat orang pompuan tak pandai buat ke ?

jangan pandang tutup mata kayh..hehe..;p

kitorang adik beradik mmg diajar buat keje sendiri

*al- maklumlah..takkde maid and parents keje

tapi kann..puas hati buat keje sendiri..

HAHA..

malam nih kompem lahh bilik sejukk and and

besttt untuk mentidurkan diri..miahaha..;p

even though aku puun di spoil oleh family , 

tapii akuu tau gak buat keje berat tauu..

except for buat benda yang memerlukan ketinggian lahh..

hehe..jumpa esk ea ?

ciao..

p / s : awakk, sorry takk online tadi..electric shortage..:)

trauma

i will always walk alone

thanks for all you've done

to you

thanks for always be my shadow

(^_^)

maybe it is the best

assalamualaikum and evening guys !

penah tak rase regret lepas buat something ?

i mean something yang boleh bagi efek in our future

i do ..but when i think over again and again..

nak patah balik puun tak boleh sebab dah lepas

and for now , i only can hope

hope tomorrow will be better than yesterday

there is Quran verse : kun fayakun

means : jika ia mahu berlaku , maka berlaku lah ia

yeao..maybe this is my destiny to not involve in that career

maybe there is something else for me

yeao..maybe better than that..who knows aite ?

Allah knows best for his servants

like Adam  NurKasih said 

Kita hanya mampu merancang , tapi Allah yang menentukannya =)

people say that never to look at our past time

but as for me , i have to look at my past time 

learnt from the mistakes and not to do the same thing again in future

how bout you guys ?

agree ?

random ~

assalamualaikum guys !

hehe..today my wish came true !

thanks abangg..ily..(^_^)

saye happyy..sebab

first , upu dah ciap sent..

* cepat lah proses ye >,<

second is i got new external..miahaha

sangat gumbirra..:)

tanak membebel banyak banyak

here some pics to share with you guys =)

my new external..just bought from PC FAIR in KB

mercii ~~

weeeee

(^_^)

these are my phones

* fyi , i never bought phone even one..

these are from my brother and dad..ily

 this is my latest kemeja *sort of

i like this design because it has hoody at the back

hehe..since i like the hoody , so i just grabbed it 

for muslimah , baju nih elok je sbb labuh and available in

four sizes..i was informed that 

this is the latest fashion..

idk whether its true or not

my new novels..hehe

* can you buyy one for me ? i am craving for novels right noww..hehe

p / s : i am missing youu ~

untitled1992

idk why

sometimes i think i don't wanna live anymore

sometimes i think i am a useless daughter

sometimes i think i am such a coward

sometimes i think i am a selfish

sometimes i think i am a bad friend

aargghh !

what happened to me ?

astaghfirullahhalazhim

come on wawa !

don't you ever think about doing THAT THING again !

you've promise to someone , did you ?

love cakes !

assalamualaikum and good day guys!

kalau mention cake , sape suke ? angkat tangan !

* saye saye..hehe..;p

kalau tahun lepas buat kek lapis

kalau 2 tahun yang lepas buat kek coklat

ingat tahun nih nak buat kek lain lah..

semalam borak borak dengan umi

umi mintakk kakak buatkan kek keladi

* umi nih cam tau tau je fav kakak..hehe

tapi hari tuu kakak ingatkan nak buat buttercake for this coming raya

tanak bagi abah beli kek kedai sebab mahal sangat..huuu ~~

KEK BUTTER vs KEK KELADI

wahh..same same sedapp..umpphhh..

huaaa..confused lahh saye macam nih..

yang satuu tuu senang nak buat

yang satu lagih tuu sedap and my faveret..

* umii , buat dua - dua boleh tak ?

ape tak boleh ?

alaaa..boleh lah ea umi..^^

sebut pasal kek , teringat kat roomies sebab diorang memang suke kek..;p

nampakk sedapp.. xD

jemput makan..tehee ~~

full image of yam cake..
* nak bake this cake lahh..=)

mianhae

assalamualaikum..

today i am gonna post about trust..

yeah..it is about trust

*but the title is mianhae = sorry

why ?

because i am really really sorry 

for those outside there

if i don't tell what is on my mind

if i don't really tell my opinion

it is just not about i am not interested to tell them

but i have no guts to do so

well i had a horrible experience during my childhood

it happened around aged twelve

to be precise before i sat for UPSR

well , my ex-BESTFRIEND back stabbed me at that time

i thought i can count on her but then she did that to me

till i have no friends at all

* poor me..:(

yet alhamdulillah i managed score well in that exam

back then , i've learnt a very expensive lesson..

DON'T YOU EVER TRUST PEOPLE EASILY !

the incident gave a big impact to me

it is so hard for me to express what lies inside my mind towards people

i have no guts to tell them

i am too scare if that incident could happen again

as in Malay says

menjadi seorang yang menyimpan perasaan sorang sorang

a.k.a telan je ape yang berlaku

it is not that i wanna isolate myself but 

I AM JUST TOO SCARE

i know what happens around me but don't think that i don't know anything

it is just i pretend to not know

time by time i learn to mengeluarkan-apa-yang-dipendam

ye lah kan..pendam lama lama pun tak elok jugak

nanti meletup makin parah

* but my boiling point is when i cry 

i will cry if i can't endure something that i've 'pendam' for a very long time

and i will cry too if my patience cross over the limits

once again , i am so sorry if i can't tell you anything

i have to get my strength back

thanks to you ; for turned me like this

p/s : crying again remembered that incident

only make me smile

assalamualaikum and good day !

i felt so tired but satisfied today

cause i managed to have a six-hours of video call :)

it is already break the older record of us..;p

people always say that 

LONG - DISTANCE - RELATIONSHIP

always don't make up

well , as for me it won't be a serious subject if people

do have SERIOUS COMMITMENT

and one more thing is we have to make extra effort to make it works

since now we have SKYPE vs OOVOO vs YM ! 

anything impossible can be possible

what can i hightlight here is we can have a private conversation

*no need to open FACEBOOK chatbox to IM..hehe

furthermore both parties can save their money esp for wedding..;p

thru my experience, this kind of relationship is likes an aid for me

to express feelings towards him

*having trouble on expressing feelings towards people..sigh

communicate every single day

let me think , in my case , not really

if one of them is busy ,  so let ' s just give some space

for themselves..* al-sabru minal iman

don't forget to send care packages if you are afford * mine insyaallah

couple who having this kind of relationship should always 

be clear about relationship to each other

to prevent from misunderstanding occur

if you think that there is 'invisible wall' between both of you , 

this is the time to break it 

if possible ,  share your passion

either likes or dislikes may look like a silly question

butt it does help people in knowing each other deeper

lastly , one thing for sure

TRUST EACH OTHER < 3 

(^_^)

p/s : insyaallah mine will work out

reunion..(^_^)

assalamualaikum (*_*)

today i felt so contented..miahaha..

and the reason is ?

today i got to see a few of my old peeps..sangat hepi !

though plan secara mengejut and tak ramai yang dapat datang,

alhamdulillah kami kami ber12 orang berjaya meng'gege'kan diri

di KFC kat airport..

*awakk..saye pegi sane tanpa awak..sedih tengok seat kita dulu..

dah lame tak jumpa kan..of course lah banyak sangat cite

nak bagitauu..nak kongsi..*cecite cecite..miahaha

terkeluar lah segala gelak ketawa maka gegak gempita 

kejap suasana kat tempat kitorang makan td..

*biar lah kitorang bagi mereka mereka yang lain cakap kitorang 

jakuun kejap..peduli hapa kann..dah lama tak jumpa..hehe

what can i see is my friends look totally different

what i mean is their attitude..

serius lain bebenor nyah ~ ~

*dah kate umur 19 kann..hehe

here i put some pictures to show how happy i was..hehe

sempat posing mase tunggu budak lelaki

*sigh..apsal budak lelaki lambat sangat ? make up ke bangg ? miahaha

posing lagih..

from left ~ maizatul, mimie, dayah..(^_^)

finally..makan tyyme..hehe..

makan sambil cakap cakap + bergurau senda

memang tak sedar bila makanan dah habis..;p

yang duk ralit makan tuu name dy winnie

*aku selalu je ingat name dy sebab aku ade minat

kartun WINNIE THE POOH..tehee ~

malu malu ayam pulakk ye ! hehe

*sebab tengah bukak mulut luas luas nak makan..;p

lepas makan kene posing lagih..hehe

the guy at the right side is ijat..

he said that

"kene ade jerawat lah..baru nampak matured"..

sakit perut dengar die buat statement cmtuu    =.=

haikal a.k.a eka 

sangat bangga dengan spek

tunku ab rahman nye..;p

mianhae..terlebih cahaya..*betul tk edit

me with zarin nadia..

one of my closest friends..ily

finally me..hehe

(^_^)

*look at my head..still position yang same kalau pose

hehe..

p / s : awakk..nanti saya nak datang sinih dengan awak lagih

boleh kan ?..;p

another side of me

my birthday is coming soon..

within a month..

so on this 19th june 2011 i 'll be official turn to 19 

i think it is a turning point of my life..

i am getting mature and more understand towards people around me

but somehow i think i still a small kid

a kid who can't go out without her parents

a kid who can't do anything her wants

a kid who need 24/7 guidance

i know that i am the only girl

but please

at least treat me as my age..

I can't deny how angry i am when you both don't allow me

to hang out with my peeps outside there

but it is only for a while

i know you think the best for me as your daughter

but at least give me some freedom

let me know what kind of the world is

is it marvelous or is it horrible

i need to know at least i can get used to it in future

i also know that people used to say that

keeping goats and cows are much easier than keeping a daughter

but i don't think that it is acceptable for now

*literally now

parents should gives their attention equally to their boys and girls

why I say that ?

it is because both genders give bad impact if they are not being controlled at young age

my point is not just blaming the parents but kids should understand 

why the elders do so.

yeahh..just like what am i doing now..

as long as I think rationale and no control by emotion 

insyaallah..MR SABAR is always with me

*another side of me is talking now..miahaha

(^_^)

people do need changes

as youu can see

there are slightly changes at my blog..

ngeh ngeh ngeh

baru explore cket cket..sambil tanye budak nakal yang name dy myrah..hehe

hehe..now talking bout the title

kalau blog dikatakan menarik sebab di-ubah sane dan sini

mesti lah jadik tertarik - menarik - dan - memang - dabomb kan

same jugakk dengan people as in human : homo - sapien

*fyi homo - sapien is our species a.k.a human

kalau manusia berubah dengan niat yang ikhlas

insyaallah Tuhan mesti bagi hidayat untuk berubah

contohnye kan..i give youu the simplest one..

bout wearing the hijab

bout puasa tak penuh *include both gender

bout performing prayers

as for me lah kann..

memang lahh tegur - menegur tuu amalan yang baik

malah memang di- tuntut dalam Islam tapi kan

in my humble opinion , tak guna jugak berubah kerana disuruh

dan rasa TERPAKSA semata mata untuk membuat perubahan ke arah kebaikan

memang lah ade hadis or quran verse i don't remember it clearly but it stated

that we should change ourselves selepas ditegur oleh someone

then slowly we will change because of Allah

its not that i object that verse but i am worry about penerimaan Allah

bukan kah Allah tak suke akan ke- PURA-PURAAN ?

let us change sincerely..from the bottom of our heart

so that Allah knows that our intuition is sincere

* saya juga sedang berubah

changes for goodness..INSYAALLAH..

ALLAHUAKBAR

ISLAM IS EASY AND 'MEMUDAHKAN' IN ANY CONDITIONS

p/s : its not me yang nak nasihat kan sape sape..I am advising myself too

(^_^)

PROJEK MEGA III

finally..ngeh ngeh ngeh

its tyme for youu SHIWA POTTER

hehe..

gomennasai sebab kau paling last

*sbb kau punye birthday date lagi lambat dr akuu..;p

ape ea yang akuu dapat describe kau nihh ?

ohh ye..we become closer since we always fight almost every day kan..

agak kelakar kutt..

lepas gaduhh..ber'sour face' kejap..lepas tuu terus 'rujuk'

miahaha..

to youu shera..thanks kat kau jugak tauu

disebabkan kau nih pandai dalam bab membaca perasaan orang

cepat je kau bace perasaan aku kalau dekat dengan kau ye..hehe

*psstt..pasal hari tuu yang kau bace..aku takleh lupe lahh..;p

sebenarnye kann..

aku boleh tahan jugak ar jeles dengan kau nih..

*chop chop jangan ketuk akuu dulu

sebabnye though kau the only gal jugakk tapi at least kau pandai make-up

hehe..aku puun skang tengah memberanikan diri 

nak menconteng and melukis muka aku yang bulat nih..=)

your do's and don'ts memang dah tersedia hafal dalam kepala akuu nih..hehe

kenangan berlari dalam hujan lepas turun bas 

yang melencong jauh dari main entrance uitm

memang aku tak penah lupe..

*sampai orang tuu ingat dy dah hilang matriks card..hehe

tak lupa jugak kenangan berlari mengejar bas

sebab ralit sangat lunch kat MSL

*stands for Medan Selera Lendon..miahaha

apsal lahh semua kenangan aku ngan kau ade connection ngan bas

ohh lupee..

aku penah cite kat kau yang dulu aku penah bace bas in english

B - U - S literally..hehe

*memang takk make sense lahh kan..

i've put some of our pictures during our foundation year

akuu suka posing camnih ngan kauu

somehow rase macam sisters..hehe

kauu always simple and sempoii..

caye lahh shera

posing takleh blah..hehe

dalam exam hall pulak tuu

guess..

whose hand is that ? hehe

gelangg ituu shera yang punyee..(^_^)

p/s : sheeraaa..takde gambar menarik nak letakk..mianhae

*takkan kau nak aku letak gambar lanun yang patah hidung kutt..hehe..imy

MOTHER'S DAY

~pengakuan berani maut dari saya ~

the holes in my tongue show how many times

I have bitten back words I meant to say to you.

I am glad you forgive me whenever I do wrong

no matter it is small or big things.

THANKS A BUNCH TO YOUU..UMMI !

i heart youu..<3 <3<3

though we are not too close like other mom-daughters

though you spend just a little time with me every day

though granny who raised me up 

though you are not always supporting me during having hard times

though abah who experts with all my sizes

though I never slept with you during my childhood

though you always pamper your sons

though you will never give what I want

though I let you decide whatever comes in my life for my own sake

though I feel depressed thinking all these

but

to tell you the truth

you are the first one appear in my mind

when I was on my first and only suicidal attempt..

like seriously 

I cried and screamed aloud..

deep inside i love you more than words

i still remember you are the one who bring me to this beautiful world

from your eyes i can feel the unconditional love to me

though I just text you to wish you something

it is just a medium to express my feelings

i just can't express my feeling..

i don't know why but i can't

* i tend to cry when it comes in touching thingy

jeong-mal mianhae

i love youu more than words 

from the bottom of my heart

yours sincerely,

your sickness and cure.

its not just only about words

hari nih aku nak membebel pasal penggunaan 

huruf yang betul..

kalau dulu lah kann

*takde lah dulu sangat..

sibuk je orang nak complain and critics 

mane mane pihak yang salahgunakan huruf 'W'

then menjadikan words sound like these

'laww' / pew / kaw

aarrghh..macam macam lah senang cakap

tapii kan as for me , 

it is still okay for me..

skang dah timbul dah pulak penggunaan 

alphabet 'F' secara berlebihan..

nih contoh aku amik dari text fon adik akuu

*jgan bagi tau dy tau aku skodeng phone dy..kiki

sajoe jarf hef hef..tdow larf awop weiff..

hadoii..bile bace sakit mate puun ade..

nak tergelak bergolek golek puun ade..

dah dah lahh tuu.. 

tau lah orang melayu pakai bahasa melayuu

tapii pakai lah bahasa melayu yang betul

nak pakai bahasa bangkuu pun boleh..

hek hek hek..

to conclude..

dah dah lah ye guna bahasa pelik pelik

kalau guna jugak

dahh..pegi cakap dengan alien sane..

miahaha..;p

betull kee ?

hari nih akuu nak cakap pasal mende nih..

SIFAT ANAK KE DUA

tuu semua orang cakap perangai anak keduaa..

orang lain lah yang cakap..bukan aku yang cakap tauu

meh sini aku nak conclude kemenda yang atas tuu

memang aku mengaku ar yang half of them betull

tapi only for me..but for those kat luar tuu..who wonder ?

entah entah tak sama langsung ke

mana lah tahuu kan..

tak semua perangai anak kedua sama and boleh jadik kamceng giler

cubalah anda anda bayangkan ape akan jadik kat parents

kalau semua anak kedua diorang ade pe'el camnih ?

sumpahh aku cakap... tak sampai 40 kepala dah nak licin..

think positive lahh..

semua tuu depends kat pemikiran and rational kita sendiri

sebagai anak and manusia yang bertamadun..

dah besarr kan..

hehe..

=)

weirdo

entah..

tuu lahh jawapan aku bile aku tengok wall die

tertera nama si perempuan itu menconteng di wall die..

bukan aku tak penah tengok wall die kene conteng ngan pompuan lain

tapi this time aku rase lain macam sikitt..

aku admit yang all these time 

aku tak penah sikit puun rase macam tuu..

kali nih je aku rasa lain macam cket..

*cket je tauu..;p

sebenarnye aku pernah je rase macam nih 

tapi aku cepat cepat tepis

tanak bagi perasaan tuu control akuu..

yang herannye 

takkan si dia tak perasan kutt nada suara aku tadi..

heran bin ajaib betul..

adooyaii..

takkan lahh dah lame berkawan 

baru skang aku baru kene sakit macam nih ..

masalah cinta negara betul..

korangg..

adakah perasaan ini bernama

perasaan JEALOUS ?

aku tanak jealous..

tapi aku suke buat die rase jealous..

hehe..;p

sebabnya senang je

tuu lahh point untuk aku sakat die..hehe

bukan senang nak sakat die sebab die nih kebal cket..hehe..

honey

i am sorry 

because i've felt that just now..

sincerely,

saya.................<3